GREENPASTURES_______&STILLWATERS

i just saw yahoo news on a dead man's body found in the toilet of Tampines mrt station on thursday morning?

i had a sudden recall.. no wonder the STINK!

it stunk like mad that thursday morning when i was going to school for psychology lecture..

i was wondering what the **

dumb toilet sewage leak

and no one was there to repair

.. ...

........

so it was the corpse's smell..

freshly 30 minutes from the time of discovery...........................

i.passed.at.7a.m. -__-




that aside
hormonal attack

cry. tv. cry song. cry sitcom. (?)

it came on tuesday.

fourth day on the going

i/it better stop

or i may cry in lectures      ..                          ??

!

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12.00pm
2 hotdogs. 2 cheese hotdogs. 1 bread

5.01pm
porridge. peanuts. fish. minced pork. prawns. long beans

7.00pm
banana milkshake

yummy

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i have this wall...

i want to tear it down..

when she was in my life..

i was able to make it small..

i was blessed with a good friendship..

i told myself i was really lucky..

i was able to live through my fall..

and have a friend witness it all..

she was a friend who knew how i fall

and accepted it.. with still much warmth

she had no wall,

she shows no effort.

she was herself when i was hacking down the wall..

because it was so ingrained, i never knew

if she could be okay

had she seen the friend behind that wall..

because she may not like it, i tried to slash myself and build a thicker wall..

i was more 'yes' than i was 'no', i was more 'okay'...than i was 'why dont we.. ..'

- i was more facework.

than i was really me..














my wall made friends with my friend

and my friend made use of my wall..

i never knew how our friendship felt..

any more than i knew how our real selves conform..

i could only work on the time the wall was nonexistent..

when the real me first got to know her four years ago..

when the friendship felt more real..

when the interaction had more life.

when we had more affinity..

when a constant trust could be placed with ease..















 
but i couldnt find this novelty anymore,

i couldnt recover the connection lost

i couldnt find the bond

because i have this wall,

at my heart's core,

i have it,

and it's not leaving,

i dont like it

but it's not leaving,

i try to break it

but it's not moving,

it's not wavering

it becomes resolute..

it stays for good.




i dont know if i am behind it anymore..
because people are now talking to my wall.

posted by me @ 3:19 pm 0 Comments

Kim Daul..
.. ..verry interresting.

http://iliketoforkmyself.blogspot.com/

posted by me @ 3:10 pm 0 Comments

self presentation and schemas in one sitting.

and i'm not 50% done yet

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Some interesting stuff

Insane tornado footage from extreme storm chasers. Video of a 1/4 mile wide F-4 tornado from only 100 yards away as a house is destroyed in the town of Manchester, SD.

Two beautiful, yet destructive tornadoes tearing through Kansas grassland on June 9, 2005. Some storm chasers capture this rare site from close range after their windshield was cracked by huge hail.


June 12, 2004 in southern Kansas. Footage of a photogenic, yet destructive white tornado from very close range as F-3 damage was produced in Mulvane, KS. Whole trees and large structures are lofted into the air with ease by one of the most beautiful tornadoes.

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Shindong!

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